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Chai Tea and troubled thoughts... [Oct. 30th, 2007|12:49 pm]
*sigh*

Pretty much on a daily basis, I make it a point to let one or two people around me know how much society, people and the way the world is in general bugs the CRAP out of me. It's not something that I can ignore either, becasue I have to come face to face with it every time I step out my front door, or get onto the internet.

First Muse - Work Ethic

Work ethic basically means that while your job doesn't come first in your life, it certainly does not come anywhere near the last thing on your list of important things. My list of things that are important looks something like this at the beginning: 1-Family/Rami. 2-Job. 3-Food and shelter...ect ect. Alot of people in my generation have a list that looks something like this: 1-Personal Image 2-having the coolest material possessions 3-getting laid on a regular basis (fast foreword) 19-Job. 20-Family.

I take my job seriously, but I do have my off days. Sometimes I forget or I'm misinformed, or sometimes I just feel like crap and i can't focus. But when my bosses points out something, I don't get all defensive and point the blame everywhere but me. I apologize and make it a point to remember what was forgotten, or to find out the information I need so that I'm no longer mis- or uninformed. And if I make a mistake ad I know i did, I apologize immediately (<--- Yanno, that word is NOT in spellcheck but it's marking it wrong. FTW man. T_T) and make DOUBLE sure i don't mess up again.

As for calling in sick, my job has a slightly retarded sick system, thanks to all the lazy-asses with no work ethic. Thanks to those people who call in sick so they can go to the beach or a party, or becasue they're hung over or just don't want to work on a regular basis, I now have to provide and official doctor's not ANY time I call in, for ANY reason. And my bosses keep the notes on hand for I think a year to check for forgeries or copies of the same note. Crazy, eh? So all of three times I've been sick this year, I only got to call in once, and it was becasue I got lucky and they let the doctor's note slide becasue they could tell I had been getting sick the day before I called in. Other than that, I've had to drag my sneezing hacking ass in to work to at least work a partial shift before asking if I can go home. And 2 out of three times, they don't let me go.

Now I am not saying I'm completely innocent here, I have called in becasue I didn't want to go to work, or becasue I wanted to go have fun. But that's a last resort only after talking to my coworkers and seeing if we can switch days off. And even then, I may only call in for no good reason maybe 3 times in a year. So I'm not completely innocent, I just keep it to the bare minimum.


Second Muse - Attitude

All through school, you probably remember getting teased or bullied and your teacher probably said this: "So what if they don't like you? You are who you are and you can't change it, so just be yourself and you'll find friends that like you for that." Ahem. I would like to slap every teacher who ever said that to a child younger than 16. In the mind of an 8-year-old, that phrase warps and twists into something along the lines of "You don't have to change, you an misbehave all you want and it's just who you are." it becomes an excuse, an excuse used by Generation x and those to follow. I know because I tried to use it as an excuse, but my parents whacked me upside the head or beat my sorry ass if I tried, becasue they knew damn well that that isn't true. Let's break down that phrase and analyze it.

"So what if they don't like you?" or the alternate and more common "Who cares?" beginning.

How it has been applied by Generation X and those after: This part of the phrase applies to EVERYONE around you, including family and superiors at school and work. if they try to say that you need to change, they're just jerks who don't understand you.

What it really means: This part of the phrase can only be realistically applied to your peers in a non-work environment. Also, this phrase should not be use to block good advice. if, per se, you're a bit of an ass and someone tells you this try to see where and when you're being a smartass and try to curb it. if your family members point out some of your flaws, try to catch yourself acting on these flaws and correct yourself. Change is good as long as it's a change for the better.

Also don't be afraid to try new things, as long as they're not life threatening. I for one, am FUCKING PROUD of the fact that the only 'drugs' I have done were strawberry tobacco from a Hookah (NOT A FUCKING BONG THERE IS A FUCKING DIFFERENCE YOU UNEDUCATED SWINE) and I got one hell of a cold from it. And I occasionally have a mixer or two on my days off or if we go to Chili's for dinner. I have only been close to drunk once, and I will never do that again.

Next part: You are who you are and you can't change it,

AHEM not entirely true. You are constantly changing on a daily basis whether you know it or not. Perhaps this is hard for a kid to comprehend, but they will start to cling to that phrase later in life. The Human body is capable of overcoming anything, given the right circumstances. There is no 'you are who you are and you can't change it'.

Third part: so just be yourself and you'll find friends that like you for that."

Who says that these friends that you'll find are good for you or even good people you want to be associated with? That's about all I can say there.


I dunno...the world is a troubling place and I've lost my momentum for now. But there you go. I hope a few people take something from my random muses and rants...
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Teh Muzack! [Aug. 23rd, 2007|10:33 am]
So, Rami got me an MP3 player for my BD, which isn't for another few days. But he wanted to get it for me for the long-ass flight and the tree hour stopover in LAX, which is the craziest airport ever. So when I get home I've gotta fill it up with all the good music I have. I'm still attached to my CD player though, and all my cool-ass CD's so I'll probably keep them around until my beloved Sony Walkman dies.


So, Big Wigs and my Eval today. Wish me luck, guys. I tried to wear something work-friendly, yes presentable, but i may have failed, with he black pants, neon green tank, and flamey green n black overshirt.


Anyway, time to go. I'll update one last time before Vacation, and then I'm gone till the 30th! I MAY get a chance to update while I'm there, but don't get your hopes up.
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Fortitude and Poetry [Aug. 22nd, 2007|09:37 pm]
[Current Music |Generator by Depeche Mode]

'Think you only know me when you turn on the light, now the room is lit with danger' - Depeche Mode

:D Ahh the 80's makes everything BETTER! I'll admit I'm surprised that I'm still able to get onto this account as well as the other two that I still had access to this time yesterday. Rami made me a new Email too, so that should help things, even though this is getting slightly annoying. But I did get my Furaffinity back, thanks to the Dragoneer.

Still working on the giftart for =Shinerai, as well as refining my non-anime style and working on my own concept for D&D's Pyroclastic Dragon. it's a mix of the picture in the Draconomicon, the original (and much better) picture that appeared in Dragon Magazine, and some of my own flavor. I'll see if I can post what I have so far once I finish working out details and inking. Also redrawing my Daedric Dragon and changing the design a bit. also renaming it the Abyssal Dragon.
 
I got 2 pallets of HELLman in at work today, and had to work on that all day, as well as cover paint. We were unnaturally busy for a Wednesday, so I didn't get anything done besides half of the HELLman. And I feel bad for those who have to close because the C.E.O. of Lowe's will be int he store tomorrow, which means that those who close likely won't be home until after 11:00. Also, I get my Eval tomorrow, to see whether I am fired, part time or full time. I asked Chuck if I'd been doing ok, and he said we'd talk about it tomorrow. >.<; I seem to be doing OK. I haven't bee written up at all, and it's only been minor problems which have been corrected.

Anyway...been reading The ideals Of The Samurai and I got really into it. Besides being full of interesting historic tidbits about Japan and a record of how the samurai came and went, it presents an interesting view of what a true 'warrior' is. And I must say, the western view of what a true warrior is is a little skewed, though since the recent explosion of anime and interest in Japanese culture, and the surfacing of more eccentrics and people trying to be different, that has been changing a bit. Also, I had been spelling Taira wrong, lol. ^_^ After I get done reading it, I may draw up a background for Ichinore and how she and Tsuneda were raised n stuff.


Anywho...I'm freakin' tired. Time for some good music and doodlies in OC. ^_^
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Nostaglia... [Aug. 15th, 2007|10:52 pm]
AUGH! >.<

I've been reading through an old friend's journal on here just to see what all has been going on in my hometown.

And I must say...I really want to go back and visit. I want to see what all of my old pals are up to, and if they've changed as much as I have since my last, rather tumultuous visit. Also, I want to congratulate my friend Jeremy (on here as Jeremotion) on becoming a fully-fledged teacher. *applauds and hugs* I don't have an exact idea why, but I am very, very proud f him for accomplishing this. ^_^


I dunno. i really want to se them again, even if I'm unwelcome. I want to just sit there, in the cool grass at that park on Arroyo Seco and talk. I want to show them how much I've changed, for the better.


Anyway...enough banter for tonight. I have to get up at  5:30 tomorrow to go to work. *sigh* BUT DAYUM I LOVE MY JOB!! *waves tool belt and whacks self in head*

~Kenji
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Just mosey'n [Aug. 14th, 2007|11:13 am]
[Current Mood | cheerful]

Decided to create an LJ account so that I have control over who sees my occasional rants and the like. Too bad the name I wanted had been banned, too. >.< Anyway, M'just a noobie here. I'll probably have some more exciting updates soon.
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